me miss slacking around spending hours just sitting
there and doing NOTHING.
maybe its just me.
my character doesnt allow me to 闲着没事做。
like wanlin like that. when im not doing anything
i will unconsciously feel too free and start finding
things to do. literally 没事找事做。LOL.
but i miss the times when i get to just sit somewhere
ulu and slack, not particularly doing anything,
not particularly thinking about anything,
not worrying that i may have tuition or whatsoever
later,
and just feeling the wind blow in my face.
such a shiok sensation.
especially after feeling bao bao from ice cream! XD
if i was able to show it my face probably will look like this -> :3
enjoyed talking with j, and just randoming talking about
lotsa lotsa things, sitting in the middle of the rooftop
seeing all the tiny (ok maybe not so tiny)
people below going about their own business.
and being contented that for once im not one of the "tiny"
people that i see downstairs rushing around going about
my business.
And most importantly,
enjoying the sky,
(yesh the pretty pretty clouds. pity i didnt bring
my camera)
and feeling the wind. XD
AND the ice cream. XD
nice. i almost died choking on the chilli choc.
LOL. but its an interesting sensation.
sweet and chocolatey and spicy.
and i liked the KOOKIE MONSTER. XD
been a long time since i actually felt myself
fully relax and chill out.
especially after these 2-3 chaotic weeks
i finally feel rested.
after a good chill out session,
much more than my 1 month or
so of holiday.
so it dawned on me yesterday, on the bus home.
That relationships between people are so intricate,
so amazing.
family, friends, strangers, all such a amazing process.
the way strangers smile at each other and small chat
even if they havent met before, and are probably never
going to meet again,
like the many nice aunties who small chat with me at
random places.
the way families usually stick together even though
they probably will hate each other to death if they werent family.
the way friends help and tolerate each other,
(whichever happens more often)
and doing all they can for their friends,
who are a bunch of people that evolved from strangers,
and have no blood relation whatsoever,
but are almost as close as family.
and that people who enjoy being in the company of the other,
whether is it family, friends, even couples,
dont need to purposely find an activity to do together to bond
properly.
its not that its not good to do things together,
just that hanging out,
feeling the wind in the middle of a random rooftop
somewhere,
talking about everything under the sun,
is as good bonding as spending money
to go hang out at maybe a chalet or a theme park.
its not the things that you do with a particular person,
is how you spend time with the person.
you can do practically nothing and still enjoy the experience.
im sure a lot of people, me included,
havent really comprehended this idea yet.
but its an interesting concept. XD
im glad i risked so many things in the process of knowing j.
made me learn alot, grow alot.
the entire idea may seem totally absurd to an outsider.
but as long as im comfortable with it, so be it. XD
accepting her contact,
talking to her on fb,
uncovering somewhat the truth even though i didnt really want to.
at first.
then meeting for ice cream,
going to random rooftops even though i have an acute
phobia of heights.
are risks that i took to uncover this friendship,
moving out of my comfort zone,
but gaining a friend i would never have gotten
if i allowed my fear to get hold of me whenever it did.
maybe this is really growing up,
making initially uncomfortable things feel comfortable
and eventually acceptable.
